Oh Wow

I'm not at all sure what happened. The last month has gone by in record time. It's hard to think this day in April I was hopping on a plane to Africa.

Getting back on track has been fun, but thankfully not too outrageous. I had prepared well at work for the trip so jumping back into that wasn't too bad. I didn't feel like I was a week behind. Getting back up to speed with the correct time zone, or I should say slowed down to the correct time zone, took a while. Getting off of the nasty malaria pills was also great.

So I spend time talking about my mental conditions and they role they play in life. That's the biggest reason I haven't posted since returning. I really feel like the last week has been the first I have felt "normal" since making it back. I think the travel, jet lag, medicines, inoculations, diet, and so-on, really played hell with my condition. It really took those weeks to get re-centered.

Thankfully all of the treatment works. Never once did I feel like I couldn't make it. Never once did anything interfere with be able to do daily activities, to live life. That is a good thing. If there is any reason to deal with issues, that's it. I can't imagine having been able to do something like that at some points in my life. It was hard enough to want to breathe, much less invest all of who I am into a group of total strangers. Just being able to feel that made the crappy several week recovery worth it.

I also know this to be true- somewhere between here and there is my real mission, the place I am called to be. I like what I do, I enjoy computers, but I need to be invested in something greater. When I look at my job all I see is me working for people to make more money and bigger margins. I see me working to take home a paycheck. At the end of the day, is there anything wrong with that? No, I don't think so. Is it for me, though? No, I don't think so. I think all of this is a call to something so much greater- a call to reach out to people.

That is what I need to focus on as recovery really takes hold.