This morning I write from Amsterdam. I'm not here long, just waiting on another flight. It's still a decent time to share some thoughts.
Surprisingly it was a pretty easy trip over. None of my "demons" came to haunt me too bad. Hopped on the plane in Nashville without any issue and made Atlanta easily. Leaving Atlanta I kinda froze about halfway down the jetway. I'm not afraid of flying, but the panic and agorophobia jumped on- I wanted to turn around and go home. Snapped the rubber band a few times and get trudging forward.
I'm thankful for this experience. Thursday I was really struggling with the idea of all of this. I really had no desire, at that point, to ever leave the house again. I was an absolute wreck. It turns out though, just like so many doctors have told me- take your medicine and walk right into the things that are frightening.
I guess it's also fair to point out that scripture says, "The Lord has not given me a spirit of fear but of peace, love, and a sound mind."
I know fear is not of the Lord, but I see the Lord use that weakness to build my reliance on Him daily.
Blessings and I'll talk to you from Kenya!
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